Monday, 30 April 2012

Thoughts of an Ageing Birthday Girl

A one year younger birthday girl


In the mirror I can see the birthday girl. I peer closely and notice the lines and soft skin and the few white hairs here and there among the red… I sigh.

I am desperately trying to stay in control of time, how it is affecting my appearance… but I know I am losing. The years are passing quickly. I am flying towards old age. "You’re not an old woman, Mum!” my girls insist. But I will be… soon.

I stand and look and think. All of a sudden, I am tired of fighting my ageing body. I am tired of always wanting to look younger. I’m tired of never being able to find a photo of me that I am satisfied with. I want to like what I see in the mirror (just like I like being who I am.) I want to feel comfortable inside my skin, this ageing skin. I want to feel at peace.

But I know peace will only come when I accept. Can I accept me as I am? Can I look at myself and, instead of sighing, be content? Why do I find it so hard to accept myself?

Gemma-Rose interrupts my thoughts. “Mum, you grow more gorgeous every day!” She flings her arms about me. And once again I am feeling very silly. What does it matter what I look like? I have something far better than youth.

I have love.

So I am handing over control… once again. I am going to try and accept what God sends, including this ageing body. At any moment in time, I am just as I am meant to be. I am just as God made me. I am perfect.

I look in the mirror at the birthday girl and I smile.

18 comments:

  1. Sue
    Happy Birthday!!!{{{}}}
    I pinned an interesting saying this week that made me think about getting older in a whole new light.
    "Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many."

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    1. Erin,

      Thank you! I am so glad you shared that saying. It puts everything into perspective.

      God bless you!

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  2. Happy birthday, very beautiful and darling sister! oxoxox

    Will talk to you, later:-)

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    1. Vicky,

      Sisters are a real blessing. Thank you for your beautiful words. Yes, we will talk later today!

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  3. Happy Birthday Sue and many many happy returns.

    I wish you happiness, joy and good health.

    I hope you have a wonderful day with your loving family.

    May God bless you always and be ever by your side.

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    1. Victor,

      Happiness, joy, good health and family... thank you! Birthdays make me realise how truly blessed I am. Nothing to complain of at all.

      May God bless you too.

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  4. Sue, Happy Birthday, dear friend. I hope your day is as beautiful as you are!

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    1. Thank you Stephanie! I am having a great day, made extra special because so many friends are stopping by with birthday messages.

      God bless!

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  5. You are absolutely perfect as God intended you to be!! Have a wonderful birthday, my sweet beautiful friend!

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    1. Noreen,

      Your words have put a smile on my face. Thank you! I had a perfect birthday. Everyone has made me feel so loved. Thank you for stopping by and adding more joy to my day.

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  6. Happy Birthday, Sue! I hope you're having a fun day!

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    1. Ellen,

      Thank you for the birthday greetings! Yes, I did have a fun day. I was treated like a queen!

      God bless.

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  7. Happy belated birthday Sue! I hope your day was full of blessings :-)

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    1. Beate,

      Thank you! After all the thoughtful birthday messages and gifts and love and attention, I am absolutely sure I am the most blessed woman ever. I might be getting older but I have wonderful friends and family to share that experience with. Thank you for stopping and adding to my happy day.

      God bless you!

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  8. You have a very wise child :) Happy Birthday, Sue! As for wrinkles, gray hair and stuff:
    We EARNED those badges of honor! They mean we've truly lived rather than just sat back watching life pass us by.

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    1. Mary,

      I have trained Gemma-Rose well: she knows all the right things to say! I think you are very wise too. I have had so many full and blessed years and yes, I am showing signs of wear and tear but... I really do not want to go back to my youth and good looks. I like being here and being me and having LIVED... Thank you for this thought, Mary.

      God bless you my friend!

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  9. Belated happy Birthday!

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    1. Dearest Miu,

      Thank you! I'm so glad you stopped and wished me happy birthday.

      God bless you!

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